Book I, Chapter IX: Submission to Change
The Festival of Sylvar, a proud religious holiday on Inque! The Crimlarians had been celebrating this holiday regarding the Goddess of Frost for longer than the Heleionites had been Inque’s masters. This history was not lost on Kiras as he walked through the village’s celebration. All around him was one large party. Stalls full of traditional food, games, entertainers, religious ceremonies, all fully displaying Crimlarian culture for all to see. Memories flooded back to Kiras as he remembered going to these festivals with his friends as a kid, that was before-
Just as his mind began to wonder, he felt a slap on the back. “You are zoning out again!” shouted Mirak with a grin on his face and a beer-mug in his hand.
“Guess I was…” Kiras chuckled to himself. It was the fourth day of the festival and Kiras was invited with Mirak, Nalas, and some other buddies to walk around the festival and see the sights. It was a good break from the festival, and Kiras was shocked when he was told that the shop was going to be closed early in lieu of the celebrations.
Kiras and the group walked past a group of religious dancers dancing and singing chants to Sylvar in the square to the amusement of the locals. They walked past a kid eating a piece of fruit glazed in some sort of sweet syrup. Eventually, Mirak, now another half a mug under, jostled Kiras and pointed at a game. Kiras looked closely and realized it was a shooting game. “How about it, ole timer? A competition?”
Kiras laughed to himself knowing full well how this whole thing was going to play out. “Sure, why not?” Mirak went first, as he grabbed the gun and struggled to aim it. He popped a shot off and it went wide, the second one went above all the targets, and by the time he ran out of ammo, Mirak had barely hit a single target. Kiras laughed, “Good thing no one ever asked you to go hunting!”
“Bite me.” said a disgruntled Mirak, handing the toy gun over to Kiras. Kiras fiddled with the gun, a familiarity washed over him. He then took the rifle, and lowered the barrel.
“You get ten shots, all ten must hit or else dinner gets cut in half for you!” shouted a voice. Kiras looked around to see who had said it, but no one was shouting. He breathed in, and methodically he began shooting targets. One target, then two, then three, one after another after another. The world grew quiet around him, and with each shot, the toy pinging slowly morphed into the sound of live fire. Eventually, the toy bullets ran out, and Kiras breathed out. Just like training, and hundreds of times before.
“You think you are hot shit furball?!?!” shouted a voice. Kiras lurched around to face the voice, gun in hand, and found himself pointing it directly into Mirak’s chest.
“First off, out of bullets,” said Mirak, slightly pointing the gun away from his chest, “second off, you aren’t getting out of owing me for food through that!” Mirak bursted out into laughter. Kiras put the gun down and rubbed his temples. Mirak stopped laughing and looked at him. “Hey, it was just a joke… hey you alright? You seem to be sweating a little?”
Kiras whipped his brow and realized he was sweating a little bit. “Yea, sorry. Maybe let's stay away from shooting things for a bit.”
Mirak looked at Kiras, “I remember you really liked this game when we were kids ya know. Thought it would be a fun memory to relive. Sorry I didn’t realize it would be rou-”
“It’s fine it’s fine,” Kiras said interrupting. “Anyway I think we should get some food, it's been a while since I had anything to eat!”
Mirak looked at his friend with an odd glance, and shrugged. “Hey Nalas where did you say that one food stall you liked wa-” Mirak turned to the crowd, but the group had seemingly scattered. “Hey Kiras, where’s Nalas?”
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“Didn’t I tell you to get lost Lervas?” asked an increasingly frustrated Nalas.
The Crimlarian in front of her, slightly inebriated, put his hand on the wall next to Nalas’s head lightly. “Look Nalas, what do I have to get you to at least walk the damn festival with me? It’s not a huge ask ya know!”
“And I told you that there wasn’t anything you could do, now leave me alone, I don’t want to worry my friends.” Nalas said.
She tried to leave but Lervas blocked her in some more, “What the drunk merchant and the soldier? One seemingly can’t resist running his mouth and the other-”
“You better pick your next words carefully Lervas.” snapped Nalas.
“I see someone has a favorite!” jeered Lervas, “What’s he got that I don’t?”
“Respect for personal space for one!” said Nalas, who was past frustrated now.
Lervas chuckled, “I find it insulting that you have a great guy right here who wants to be with you and you choose the fucking Imperial pawn who we all thought was dead for ten years and who just so happened to saunder back into our lives!”
“You really are not helping your chances right now at being chosen though are you?” said Nalas.
“Look…” Lervas said backing off a bit, “All I am saying is that your choice of guys is questionable if your top pick is a man who could easily get conscripted again and get shot on some far off planet-” The slap came sudden and hard, Lervas reeled back and had to catch himself from falling. He looked at Nalas, who sneered at him, clenched fists. “Alright if that’s how you want to plaaaaaaaaAAYYYY”
Nalas’s sneer stopped as Lervas’s head and body slammed into the wall next to her, a single arm pinning his neck to the wall. Nalas looked and saw Kiras standing there, in a combat pose. “You know Lervas, if you actually were gentle, you could have gotten a woman by now!” he joked. Kiras looked over at Nalas, “Hey you alright?”
Nalas’s face turned a bit red, but not from anger. “Fine, thanks!” she said, “Though I had the situation under control!”
“Trust me Nalas, this was more for Lervas’s protection than anything!” said Mirak as he walked over, “Alright boy, down.” he joked at Kiras.
Kiras let go of Lervas and tossed him to the ground. Lervas grunted a bit before standing up, “Well if it isn’t the prodigal soldier himself, we were just talking about you ya know?” Lervas dusted himself off to the best of his ability, “Tell me something, you ever fear getting called back up?”
“Excuse me?” asked a rather confused Kiras.
“It’s an honest concern some would have! You are a soldier now after-all! Any day you could get called up again and disappear for another ten years!” shouted Lervas, “Now I don’t know how conscription works in the Empire, but I feel if they wanted to drag you away again like all those years ago they could easily do it!”
“Hey Lervas I know your ass hurts figuratively and literally, but uh, relax before you make everything worse.” remarked Mirak.
“Yet here you are! Trying to pretend that nothing has changed! Trying to live a normal life!” Lervas started wagging his finger, “You are the property of the Heleionites my friend, and everyone in this village knows! You aren’t fooling anyone with this medicine-man bullshi-”
The punch came fast and quick, and Lervas soon found himself on the ground. He looked up to see Kiras, fuming in anger. Mirak quickly stepped in before Kiras could continue his punches, “Hey hey hey I think he got the message!” Kiras stopped, and looked around to see a small crowd looking at the fight. He looked over at Nalas, who had a shocked look on her face.
“Excuse me…” he said as he quickly walked off away from the scene.
“Hey wait up-” Mirak began before he was interrupted by Nalas putting her hand on his shoulder.
“Let me take care of this…” she said.
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“Well you done fucked up now didn’t you Kiras?” mumbled Kiras to himself as he strolled through the forest. What was he thinking? He really let that little shit Lervas get to him that bad? Yet, something about what Lervas said rang in his head.
““You are the property of the Heleionites my friend, and everyone in this village knows!”, that sentence screamed in his head. It was always his biggest fear that the village would just see him as a soldier, something he did not want to be seen as. Decking Lervas though wasn’t going to stop those fears however. Hell, the villagers probably see him more as a brute now than ever, just some auxiliary thug.
“You know back when we were kids, you never would have thought about punching someone in the face” a voice suddenly came from behind. Kiras turned to see Nalas leaning against a tree, looking right at him. “Figured you’d be out here”
“There are a lot of things I feel I wouldn’t have done as a kid now. Here to yell at me for them?” asked a frustrated Kiras.
Nalas walked over to Kiras, “Not really, just wanting to make sure you are alright.”
Kiras rubbed his hands over his face, “Do you think what he said was true? That I am just seen as another soldier, Nalas?”
“You really are taking that asshole’s comments seriously?” asked Nalas.
“No… it’s not that, it’s just…” Kiras began to explain, but he had a hard time coming up with the words.
“What’s wrong, Kiras? Something is obviously bothering you” Nalas continued.
Kiras sighed, “It’s nothing that you need to worry about, I just need some time to think. I don’t want to ruin the festival for you and Mirak-”
“I don’t care about any of that at the moment! You obviously are going through a lot, and I want to help you!” interrupted Nalas.
“Oh so I punch a guy and you think my mind’s all fucked up? Is that what this is?” asked a frustrated Kiras.
“No that’s not that at all! It feels like you are trying to keep a lot of things to yourself and it leads you to lash out when someone brings it up apparently!” said Nalas.
“I am fine! Why can’t everyone just let things go back to the way they were before! Put the last ten years behind them and just go back to normal!” shouted Kiras. “I want to live a normal life, I don’t want people to change for me, I just want things to remain the same! Apparently I can’t have that!”
“Because what happened to you wasn’t normal! You were put through a terrible experience, everyone understands that!” said Nalas.
“So it's pity then!?!” shouted Kiras, louder and angrier. “You feel bad for the soldier coming home from war and now have to treat him with fucking kids gloves?!”
“We never treated you like that! We always have wanted to help you return to a peaceful life, but it’s clear that your time in the military has changed you! What with the night terrors, the sudden quiet disposition, lashing out in anger, you can’t just magically wish all that away because you just want to go back to when we were kids!” said Nalas.
“Maybe I am suffering from these problems! Maybe I can never escape the fact that I killed people against my will! Maybe my personality is so different that I might as well be a different person! I don’t care, these are my problems, and not anyone’s concern. I want people to see me as the kid they remembered from ten years ago, and nothing else!” continued Kiras.
“I can’t do that… I can’t look at you the same way I did those years ago…” said Nalas. Her voice got quiet and shaky.
“And why not!” yelled Kiras again.
“Because I love you, you stubborn ass!” Nalas screamed.
The forest got quiet as the trees rustled softly. Kiras stopped, looking at Nalas who had tears in her eyes. “You want things to go back to normal, make us all pretend that you never got conscripted, make us ignore all your trauma and problems, and just carry on like you were on a trip for the past ten years. I can’t do that Kiras. I care about you, more than ever before and I can’t watch you suffer alone in solitude…” Nalas took a breath as a soft cry echoed from her mouth. “You don’t need to fight these problems alone, you don’t need to bury your past, you don’t need to pretend like nothing happened. You went through a horrible experience, and we want to help you recover. I want to help you recover!”
Nalas wiped a tear running down her cheek. “It’s okay that things are different. It’s okay that people may not look at you the same way they did ten years ago. I want to be with you and help you realize this, to help you with whatever painful memories you have! Please Kiras…”
Nalas continued to softly cry as her sobs were the only thing echoing through the forest. “This is really embarrassing, I’m sor-”
It was then that Kiras embraced her. “I should be the one apologizing for making you cry like this. That wasn’t my intent…” Nalas calmed down as her head rested against Kiras’s chest. She then felt a hand on her head, slowly caressing it. “You know what’s funny, all of this time I wanted everyone to pretend that I hadn’t changed, that I was the same plucky kid from before. But deep down, there was one thing, one thing I hoped could change. I was just afraid it would lead to my perfect future world being torn apart, no matter how much I desperately wanted it.”
“What was that?” asked Nalas. She then felt something warm on her forehead as she looked up to see Kiras kissing it. Her face grew red in a matter of seconds.
“I wanted to be more than just a friend to you.” said Kiras, face also red.
Nalas, after a few seconds, pushed back from Kiras, laughing, “By the Goddess what kind of sappy romantic confession was that!” she said through the laughs. “You could have also just said ‘I love you too’ you big nerd!” she continued.
“I figured we were spilling our hearts out over here, I'd do something like that!” said Kiras, red in the face from embarrassment.
“You sounded like the main protagonist in a romance novel!” said Nalas, still laughing.
“Hey come on now, you were so serious a second ago and now you are laughing at me! I wouldn’t have been like that if this is how you were going to re-” Kiras was interrupted by Nalas walking over, grabbing his shirt, and kissing his lips.
After releasing their lips, Nalas spoke up with a smile on her face, “But also hearing those words come out of you is a dream come true.”
Kiras smiled back, “You know, maybe you are right that I shouldn’t be afraid of things being different. Maybe starting with you is the best way to get over my fears.”
“And all I ask is to be with you every step of the way!” she responded. “Now come on, Mirak is probably another three pints under and we need to survive his harassment when we tell him about this.”
“Oh boy…” said Kiras. Nalas chuckled as she slid her hand into Kiras’s, and together, the two started making their way back to town.
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The screen blurred to life in the window of the shop. The Imperial insignia glowed out and the sound of the anthem blared through speakers. A similar message was appearing on screens across the city and across the planet. Eventually the screen transitioned to a Heleionite standing at a podium in regal attire. A message played across the bottom:
“Breaking News! Emperor to give speech addressing military concerns!”
The rumors have been swirling across the Empire that a terrible disaster befell the military in the past few months. Perhaps this speech was to talk about it directly. The Emperor began to speak.
“Good Day, citizens.”
“It is with great sorrow and sadness that I speak to you today, to report that our brave and honorable soldiers suffered a terrible misfortune on the planet Amhleshshi.”
The rumors were true? It must have been pretty bad if the Emperor himself would admit it.
“The dastardly and treasonous inhabitants of that planet, ungrateful for the freedom and liberty We provided their people, struck out against our brave forces and dealt a devastating blow to them. This treason is befitting of such a people, and proper force must rectify this situation!”
Amhleshshi was the desert planet, right? Isn’t that the planet with all the slaves? The slaves rose up in revolt? They also managed to beat the Legions? How bad of a shape is the Legion in?
“However, in order to properly defeat such a treasonous and ungrateful people, We ask you, the citizens of the Empire, all citizens, to join together and fight for the sake of liberty and freedom!”
“As such, by the power of Our Crown, and the authority of Our throne, We issue a decree requesting all citizens fulfill their patriotic duties to the Empire to take up arms and join us in defeating this foe!”
A request? No… the Heleionites would never request anything from their subjects, this was a demand.
“All citizens of the Empire who meet Our specifications for service will be called upon to defend liberty and freedom from those who seek to fight against it on Amhleshshi!”
It was another conscription… to put down a slave revolt!
“We humbly thank all citizens for their sacrifice in this grave threat. We hope that all citizens selected will fulfill their duty with pride and honor, with zeal to defend the Empire in their souls!”
The speech soon gave way to shouts on the screen.
“Long Live the Empire!”
“Long Live the Emperor!”
“Long Live the Empire!”
“Long Live the-”
The brick through the window cut the broadcast off. It slammed through it, causing sparks and static to rise out alongside broken glass. The screen cracked and blazzed.