Chapter 41: Awakening
6th November, 1777
Charleston, South Carolina
"Master Preston, please?" Dieter von Zahringen studied a black woman who must have weighed fifteen stone (210 lb, 95 kg). She wore a simple pale blue dress with a white apron and white kerchief.
She studied him with sad brown eyes. "I'm very sorry, sir, but Master Preston is not seeing ... Sir!?" This as the German pushed past her into the main hall.
"Where is he?" he snapped.
"Sir, I beg pardon if I was not clear." She indeed sounded apprehensive. "Master Preston is unwell, he bids..."
"Bedroom? Well enough." von Zahringen climbed the stairs. The Badenite (1) opened his black coat as he climbed, the wind outside was fierce.
"Sir!? Sir, please, I cannot..."
"I need a basin of water and a straight-edge," he barked in a voice meant to carry over thundering muskets. "I will also need boiling coffee if you have it, bread and cheese." von Zahringen turned away from her astonished, dismayed expression.
"Oh dear, oh dear," she bustled into the kitchen. She couldn't come out of this unscathed. If she defied the stranger - the white stranger - and he had legitimate business, she could expect punishment. On the other hand, if he wasn't welcome she had failed to help her master, and that wouldn't do either. Not that Preston was given to punishments, he was far too lost in his own torpor. The outdoor slaves believed he'd been cursed, or infected with some wasting disease. She cried out at the shot overhead.
John lay, somewhere in a nightmare involving Cassie and a rapacious British soldier, when his door slammed. Martha? No, the stride was wrong. Quick, sharp. He opened his eyes long enough to see a dark shape dart across his room, then suddenly he went blind.
"Wake up, boy." von Zahringen turned from the open curtains and seized the boy bodily, pulling him to the ground covers and all. "It is mid-morning."
"Who the devil?" Preston's eyes finally focused as he glared upwards. "I remember you, you were in New York!"
"Yes. I come with a message from your friends. You've curled up and died long enough, it's time to get back to business."
"Who sent you? Heyward? That son of a bitch will..." John jumped to his feet, glaring.
"That
son of a bitch has saved you from more pain and humiliation than you can possibly imagine. So did your cornet, for that matter, and you've paid them back by
this?" He glanced around the room, not exactly in military order. "It is time to stop feeling bad and get on with it. Every able-bodied man in this country is gearing for war, and..."
"I don't care."
The Badenite paused. Shrugged. "Very well." He drew his pistol and pointed it at John's heart.
"What are you doing!?"
"If you are prepared to lay down and die," von Zahringen snarled, "then I may as well help you. Your friends will be sad, but at least then they can stop living in the past as well."
"You're bluffing."
He turned his pistol to the open window and fired. Before Preston could react, the German had drawn his other pistol. "Let us try this one more time."
"Master Preston!" Martha ran up the stairs, heaving her fifteen stone with surprising agility. "Are you al....EEEE!!!!" She stared wide-eyed at the pistol.
"Leave us!" the German roared.
"Sir?"
John licked his lips, staring at the barrel. "Martha....Get the constable, tell him..."
"Contact the constable and I will finish my mission before you return, madam. I am from the Army, and this man is a defaulter. Do you know the penalty for interfering with the Army, madam? Five hundred lashes - if you're lucky." He hated intimidating her. There was no honor in striking at someone who couldn't fight back. von Zahringen was out of options however, and nodded slightly as Martha's eyes sank to the floor. She left sadly. Definitely no way to win.
"Now then. Are you that certain you want to die?"
"I don't know what makes you think you can come here," John began harshly, " scare
my servants, draw a pistol in
MY house! I don't care who sent you, you're ridiculous!"
Anger. Anger was better than torpor, but still a cover. The German sniffed. "What do you care? You're already prepared to die."
"I didn't say that!"
Dieter said nothing. He simply waited.
"I mean... look, I need time, that's all."
"Time. That is where your friend - and mine too - made his error. Time only works if you have something important enough to stave off the grief. Otherwise you brood. Brooding just magnifies the loss, and soon you start blaming others for what they could have done." He uncocked his pistol and put it away. "Then you start blaming yourself, then you stop trying."
"Leave me alone."
"I cannot. Too many people are counting on your return. Not to mention it is your duty."
"Duty?" John howled, whirling. "Duty? Do you know where duty got me? This! If I had gone against my duty maybe I could have found her! Maybe she'd be alive! Maybe we'd be....."
"Maybes solve nothing, boy. Didn't your father teach you anything?"
"Leave my father out of this!"
"I've heard about him you know. At least
he was willing to die free, rather than feel sorry for himself because some things one has to fight for."
"You don't know anything! I could have saved him! I went there to save him! Instead..." Preston stared out the window stubbornly.
"No one could have saved him," von Zahringen answered, not ungently. "God called him home. You do believe in God, don't you?" Preston nodded sullenly. "Then you know there was a reason. It wasn't your fault. It wasn't anyone's fault. It happened. Don't dishonor his memory and your woman's by giving up now. You're needed, now more than ever."
Martha appeared in the doorway, trembling, with the basin and straight-edge.
"Haven't you read the news? The British are coming. And we're not ready." He walked to Preston's desk and held up the paper.
By the same author as the first one on page 1 or 2.
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(1) Okay Judas, I've been guessing. Maybe you know. Is it Badenite? Badener? Badenian?