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April 1784
Georgia
"Jessie," he whispered. "Oh, Jessie."
Anne Whiting looked up from her knitting and bit her lip. She stood, dipped a towel in the nearby basin and gently dabbed at the writhing figure's hand: His face and chest were covered in bandages. He'd been like this since the initial surgery, passing through an agonized delirium where only one person, one name offered any comfort whatsoever.
"I'm here, Thomas." She sat by his side, gripping his relatively undamaged arms. "I'm not leaving."
"Jess..."
Anne had long since forgiven this indiscretion, this woman from a shadowy past she did not know and could never understand. One didn't always get to choose who they loved, and she knew better than to compete with the idealized remains of some ghost from his youth. Plus, what right did she have to complain? The night before the Cherokee campaign, when she'd taken him to bed, she almost invoked her dead husband's name. No, no right to complain.
It still hurt though, and made her want to wring his neck... except in the present balance it would probably kill him. It was only providence that had her pass by Mr. Rutledge's house when it exploded, curious how Tom was faring. Providence that allowed her to find his broken body so quickly, and to this day she had no memory how she'd pulled a twelve stone (195 lb, 88 kg.) into her cart at all, let alone without killing him. She dared not ask fate for more favors.
"You must try to rest," she told him, trying to break through whatever pain he must be in. "Thoma..."
He screamed. A shocking noise in the still night air, like a damned soul who's only just realized their last hope for salvation has passed. His back arched, bent so far she thought it must certainly break under the strain. Then he collapsed.
"Thomas! Thomas!
Nurse! Porter!" Whiting ran from the room.
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Tom stepped away from Jessie and stared down hill. The field seemed to go on forever, finally ending at a fog bank from which lightning occasionally flashed. "Not marrying you was the greatest mistake I've ever made."
"I waited," she sighed. "I waited and waited. I knew you wanted to wait until the war was over, and I knew it had to end eventually."
"Then we just ran out of time." Tom turned. She was sitting by the grave, hugging her knees. "I'm so sorry."
"Is that why you came?" she asked, tilting her head. "To apologize?"
"I didn't choose to come!" Tom took a step towards her. "I...Maybe I came to be with you."
"You can't stay, Tommy." She shook her head and lowered her chin to her knees.
"Why not? What's the alternative? A world I don't even want?"
"If you stay, then this is our last time together." She hugged her knees tighter.
Tom's jaw slackened. He dropped to his knees. "You're cruel," he whispered.
Tears sprang into her eyes and she shook her head. "Don't you think I want to be with you? Tommy!" She scrambled to her feet and knelt in front of him. "Don't you understand? If you stay, then
he..."
"To hell with him, Jessie! All I want is you!"
She slapped him. He crumpled, sobbing. Jessie pulled him close, speaking rapidly. "If you stay, then he will twist America into something horrible. Your friends, Tommy! And by the time we are born again, he'll have the world. But that's not enough, he doesn't want to conquer it, Tommy!"
"He wants to kill it."
She sat back on her heels and nodded.
"But it's already too late, isn't it? You said it yourself. I 'broke' the timeline. What we shared is already gone."
She lowered her gaze.
"So what does it matter?"
"You have people who care for you
now Tommy. I know about Mrs. Whiting!"
He blushed. "What do you know?"
"I know she loves you, and you love her! Don't make the same mistake again! Isn't she worth fighting for?"
"Fight!?" Tom laughed, almost hysterical and leapt to his feet. He stepped away, waving his arms at the mist. "How can I fight him? All I have is a name: Black. I don't know if he's a demon or a god or a..."
"He's an angel."
He dropped his arms. "A devil maybe," he sneered.
"No, Tommy. He's an angel."
He turned slowly and arched his eyebrow. "He can't be. He's evil. Why are you shaking your head?"
"Remember Mrs. McKendrick? The one who liked to tie cats in a sack and throw them in the river until the constables stopped her? Or how about what the Germans did to my brother at Dunkirk? We've seen worse, Tommy. It doesn't take power to be cruel."
"I can't believe you're defending him!"
"I'm not!" She stepped up to him again. "I'm making a point: An important one. There are no devils, Tommy! There are angels who we agree with morally, and those we think are wrong. It's the same with people. This isn't about good and evil. It never was!"
"Then what is it about?" Tom demanded.
She rested her hands on his chest and met his incredulous gaze. "Us versus them."
Tom rubbed his head. "I don't understand."
She smiled coyly. "It's kind of complicated."
"And how do you know all this?"
"That's complicated too."
"Try me!"
"Don't be grouchy, Tommy!" She placed her fists on her hips and glowered. "I'm trying to help!"
"Fine." Tom sighed. "I'm sorry."
She studied him for a moment. "You're frustrated."
"Do you blame me?" he asked bitterly.
Jessie grinned. "You always were easy to confuse. Fine, what do you want to know?"
"How do you expect me to fight a...an angel, then?"
"Carefully?"
"Ha ha ha."
She frowned and tapped her foot. "You're being grouchy again. I'm quite serious. Carefully, but it can be done. He's afraid of you, you know."
"
He is afraid of
me?"
Jessie nodded. "Why do you think he hides as he does? If he was truly so powerful, why not just announce what he's doing and slaughter anyone who tries to stop him?"
"Why is he afraid of me?"
She grinned. "Why do you think? He doesn't want to die."
Tom gaped. Jess passed him and stared at the fog bank. It seemed much closer now. "You will have to choose soon," she said quietly.
He reached out and took her hand. "What is it?"
She shook her head, tears in her eyes.
"Tell me!"
"It's..." Jess shook her head again and backed away. "Listen, Tommy. There's no time." She inhaled.
"Jess..."
"Shush! Listen. Remember." She inhaled again, and closed her eyes. "In the beginning there was the Spirit, who we call God. He realized He was alone, so created the universe from the chaotic energy around Him for company. To help Him with this task he created guardians..the Angels..and taught them how to use this energy as well."
"But in time He felt alone again. The Angels deferred to Him of course, and the animals were... animals. He realized there were only two possible solutions: To find another Spirit as powerful as Him to treat Him as an equal, or to voluntarily limit His own power. He therefore made one last creation, and infused them with His spirit. The Holy Spirit."
"Humanity," Tom whispered.
"It was the answer God sought. He could interact with the other aspects of his spirit more or less equally, and He was pleased. At first his Angels played along, filling the roles of gods, demigods and heroes in a dozen cultures. Then the Jews realized there was one greater Spirit and worshipped Him. Monotheism destroyed the Angels' power, relegating them to 'helpers' or maybe saints. The Angels were angry. They were no longer His favorites. They felt abandoned. And so some rose up and tried to overthrow Him."
"The war between Heaven and Hell."
"They lost. One, however, wasn't at the final battle and instead chose to bide his time. He didn't want to overthrow God, he wanted to destroy humanity so God would have to pay attention to the Angels again. World War II suited his needs perfectly, and a little gratuitous revenge on the oldest monotheistic faith didn't hurt either."
"Are you saying Black is
jealous?"
"Basically." The fog bank was very close now.
"Why go against the Indians then? They're not monotheistic!"
"No, but the Cherokee have legends that more accurately describe his role and connection with the Spirit. Such knowledge is dangerous...for him."
"Even if this is all true, I can't fight all these Angels!"
"You don't have to. Most are neutral. One or two are trying to help."
"Then why don't they get off their rumps and be a little more direct about it?" Tom demanded.
"They don't want to die either." The fog bank crackled menacingly. Jess stared. "Tommy, the reason I could talk to you this long is because we're human." The wind picked up, whistling through the air. "Don't you see? We carry part of the Spirit. We..our souls cannot die! Our bodies are just shells, creations of chaotic energy shaped into matter." The wind howled. "Our souls return to God. We're immortal!"
He couldn't make out her next words through the roar of thunder, but he could read her lips.
"Angels are not."
The howling storm of pure entropy, the universe's effort to correct two contradictory timelines that couldn't both exist, slammed into them. The fierce wind ripped apart his grip on her hand in an instant, and Jess was flying, flying but unafraid. She looked down at him until she was little more than a blur in the icy cold fog. He screamed her name, but his voice was lost on the howling wind. A lightning strike flashed in his face and the air bellowed its rage.
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Thomas Heyward stood at the end of a long hall lit in blue lights. In his hand he clasped a bent, battered coin. He had no idea how it got there, and in truth it didn't matter. She was still out there....somewhere, with God perhaps. He wasn't alone.
And truth be told, he never
had been alone.
Choose, a voice whispered.
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"Anne?"
Dawn. A cold dawn, despite it being the latter half of April. Sunlight poked through the window, shining on a prone, bandaged figure in bed and one slumped on a chair by its side. It took some effort, but he managed to shift his arm under hers. "Anne?"
She awoke instantly and peered into his face. "Thomas!" She gasped. "Oh my God, Thomas!" Anne stood and started to hug him, then remembered herself when he cried out. "They told me...Never mind what they told me." She composed herself. "How do you feel, General Heyward?"
"I've had better days."
She sniffed and wiped her eyes. "I have much to tell you, but..."
"Me too. Anne..."
"Rest now. I will call for a nurse. You're in a hospital. You're safe."
"Anne!"
"What is it, Thomas?"
"Marry me."
"What!?" She stood and stared at his broken body incredulously. "Thomas! This is hardly the time!"
"There may never be a better."