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2 April, 1781
Charleston, South Carolina
The gentlemen of Charleston chuckled and talked amongst themselves on Rutledge's lamp lit porch through that early spring. Occasionally a black servant would appear with drinks as they chatted about wives and sweethearts, the condition of the human heart, sorrow and joy, the joy of the hunt, of besting your fellow man on a mercantile or legal matter, profitable deals from the past, profitable deals for the present...
No one really noticed John leave. He was an outsider there on his father's good name, and even if his girl (an unusually lively, pretty creature) was proving difficult they couldn't love him. Mister Sparrow might be given to William Blake and coarse humor, but he was also vengeful and made sure they didn't love him.
Preston paced along the side of Rutledge's house, sidestepping the deep furrow left by a cannonball years past that nature hadn't quite healed. The nearly full moon made the yard clearly visible. To his left he heard the neighing of a pair of horses, barks and yaps of Rutledge's hunting dogs. He headed in that direction lost in his own thoughts.
Cassie...could she really have changed that much? He didn't know what part she was trying to play, but
that wasn't the Cassie he knew. It made his chest hurt and head throb thinking about it. What was she doing? How had a simple reunion turned so foul? Was this the end? He'd spent over three years believing her dead and it'd nearly destroyed him. He couldn't lose her again. No, not like this.
John looked back at the house. Rutledge meant well, but he'd try to stop him. His fat wife would be even worse. No, this called for .... His eyes traveled up to the only lit room on the second floor. And its balcony. Yes...
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Cassie gripped the dog's head in her hands, talking to it like a close confidant. She'd quite forgotten about Isabel, standing mutely like a wood statue in the corner uncertain what to do.
"No, you're right, I have to go back down there and talk to him. But how? We must have made quite a scene." The fact not one of the ladies of Charleston had come to check on her seemed to confirm that. "I think we've embarrassed each other quite enough. Though God Lucy, it's not my fault he slipped and fell!"
Lucy panted serenely.
"I shouldn't have tried to fit into his world. We're just...," Cassie lowered her gaze, ignoring the stinging tears. "We're too far apart. He knows that now." She'd spent years dreaming of this day, and only in her darkest, least secure moments did it go quite like this. "But if I don't belong here..."
Lucy pulled away abruptly as a metallic clink echoed outside. She ran to the balcony doors and pawed at them.
"Is someone out there?" Cassie stood, her problems forgotten. Isabel gave a frightened yip. "Are you still here!?" Gone was her doubts, Cassie knew how to deal with trouble. She could hear the intruder now as well, grunting and breathing hard like some beast. "On the count of three, Lucy..."
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You're out of shape, John thought as he coiled the rope and hook stolen from Rutledge's shed. No surprise, he spent most of his time on horseback. "Now, I just have to find a way to open the door.."
The door opened. Lucy charged out, appraised him critically, then pounced and licked, tail beating a staccato rhythm on the floor..
"Hey, stop that!" Preston shielded his face with his arms.
"John?" Cassie stepped out, a bronze paperweight still in her clenched fist. "Down, Lucy!"
"Guard dog?"
Rafferty smiled slightly, but it quickly faded. "What are you doing here?"
"I came to see you. Can I come in, or shall we talk from the balcony?"
"Mrs. Rutledge says ... well, I don't think she said anything about men appearing at my window, so you might as well." She smiled again.
John could care less what Mrs. Rutledge said, but now might not be the time to share that opinion. He stepped into her room and stared at the giant bed, dresser, tables, sitting chairs. He whistled low. "Very pretty."
"Yes...they've been very generous."
"Does she come with the decor?"
"Isabel, get out of here!"
"Yes, miss." Isabel happily left the two lunatics. She was no sooner out the door then Preston spun Cassie about and hugged her.
"John!!"
"Shh."
"I didn't let you be so forward in '76 John Preston!" She sighed and sank her head onto his shoulder.
"I thought you were dead."
"I...I know. I didn't then. I tried to get a message through, but with the war..."
John released her. "It's alright now."
Cassie lowered her gaze. "No...not really."
"What do you mean?"
"A lot's happened, John....A lot. I'm not the woman you met."
"I'm not the man you met."
She ignored him and turned away. "I thought I could hide it, I thought I could be what you wanted, but I just don't fit in here."
"Be what I wanted? What the devil are you talking about?"
"Don't curse at me!" Her eyes blazed for a moment as she turned back, then dulled again. "You come from a good family John, whereas my pa was a tavern keeper and I don't remember my ma. I'm just not... one of you."
"One of me?" Preston stared, then abruptly he laughed - a short, barking, cynical sound. "You mean
this!?" He waved his hand around the room.
"Yes. You're Carolina aristocracy, Mister Rutledge was quite particular..."
"Oh he was, was he? I may talk to him later about that."
"Please don't. Like I said, they've been kind."
Preston growled audibly. "If you'll recall, I always knew you were a tavern keeper's daughter. You really think I give a damn about any of this? Bugger them all!"
"Johnny..."
"Miss?" Isabel poked her head through the door. "Mrs. Rutledge asks, will you be returning to the..."
He slammed the door in her face and locked it.
"John!"
"I never judged you by your position," he growled, "Don't judge me by mine."
"I'm not judging you!" Cassie sat down heavily. "It's just..." He waited. "A lot's happened, John. I ... I don't want to be a burden anymore."
"Anymore?"
"Never mind."
Preston minded very much. "You are not a burden. You're my fiancé."
"
I am!??"
She is!?? John paled and flushed in turn. "I mean...if you want, I mean, it would oblige me if .... God's death Cassie, I mean I thought I lost you once and ... a lot happened." He laughed sharply. "I don't plan on losing you again, I couldn't bear it."
She touched his scarred, canister marked face gingerly and cried.